Contemplations

I started going through really old emails today- this got me thinking about how much I have changed in the last 5 years. I could hardly believe how different I was such a short time ago. It's amazing how fast people can grow up... My perspective, outlook and priorities have become so different than they were back then.

I used to be preoccupied with being 'liked'... now, I would rather be respected. I used to think I needed attention from guys... now, I am confident in who I am. I used to avoid confrontation like the plague... now, I am ready to face what is to come. I used to be obsessed with perfection in school... now, hahahah... uhm, I'm not. :) I used to sacrifice sleep consistently for school- I now realize sleep is far more valuable to stay sane and healthy. I used to stay only in my comfort zone within a specific social realm of people- now, I have knocked that wall down and opened up a bit. I was never much of a risk taker... now, I have taken leaps of faith that I never would've fathomed. (Like planning to go on World Youth Day in Australia by fund raising... haha) I have realized that completely laying your heart on the line is not always a good idea. I have learned that things may not go your way, but that doesn't mean they're not headed in the right direction. I have discovered that when you are standing for something that matters, life has a heck of a lot more meaning. Small losses don't even compete with the satisfying gains of self-fulfillment. These things are only the start of where my mind travelled today...